Over the past few months, I’ve been struggling. Struggling to find time to get everything done. Between work, kids, house care, chores, activities, pumping and sleep, there just never seems to be enough time in the day.
And then on top of it, I decided now would be a great time to start a blog. What was I thinking? Yes, I’ve wanted to do it for years, but I voluntarily added more to-dos to my list. <face palm>
Hence why I have not posted much over the past few months. I don’t even have enough time to sleep right now, let alone find time for myself. I only have time to write this right now because I’m pumping and I spent ALL DAY getting things done.
And honestly, I’ve been beating myself up about it. Every day. Every to-do list, every weekend, I write “blog post” at the top. Along with about 10 other items, most of which don’t get crossed off. It makes me feel so guilty.
But, I recently had a thought, “WHAT AM I DOING?” I am literally in the busiest season of my life.
- I have an infant, two young kids, a full-time job, etc.
- The baby still wakes up multiple times a night.
- I struggle to get even 6 total hours of non-consecutive sleep.
- I’m so busy at work, I don’t have time for a lunch break and still regularly leave 30 to 60 minutes late.
- Pumping, making bottles, cleaning bottles takes up about 3 hours of my day.
- Our weekends are full of birthday parties, kids sports, activities, etc.
- The laundry and dishes aren’t going to clean themselves.
Despite all of this, somehow I still expect that I should be able to keep up with everything? Why? Where did I get this crazy expectation that I need to do it all? There literally are not enough hours in the day.
So basically I’m giving myself a break. Yes, I started this blog. Yes, I still write lists daily and want to share them with the world to help other moms. And one day, I will get back to it more regularly. But perhaps it might only be after my LO starts sleeping through the night again.
🙂 See you then!
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